Our Love was Nothing but a Joke to You

It all started by sending jokes,

Laughing at our terrible sense of humour,

For her it stopped,

But for me,

I began to fall in love.

 

I stressed about what to send her,

My style of text,

My language used,

I didn’t want to seem fake,

I was in love,

You see, first opinions matter.

 

The other day the messages stopped,

I waited for hours,

Tapping at my phone,

Impatiently,

It seemed my love had withered,

And died.

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The Good Deed Tag

Hey guys,

I know that I said I wasn’t going to mention my other blog but I wanted to help give back to the community and thought this would be a great way to do it.

The original post: https://motivationalless.home.blog/2019/02/23/good-deeds-do-not-go-unanswered-the-creation-of-the-good-deed-tag/

The Rules:

  1. Thank the person that tagged you
  2. Explain what it is about
  3. Display the rules
  4. Explain your good deed that you did
  5. Nominate others to share the word

So, thanks to myself over at https://motivationalless.home.blog/

What is this tag about?

  • This tag is about giving back to the community and doing a good deed. If you are tagged, you are required to do one good deed, then post about it and nominate someone else.

My good deed:

The other day my friend was really sick and had been off school for a while. I went over to her house yesterday with food and missed homework. She was so happy to see me and it made my day. She is now on a steady road to recovery and could not be more pleased/

My nominations:

I nominate:

 

thanks for listening,

love you all,

xx

Where I’ve been and being honest

Fuck this is going to be hard.

 

I haven’t been honest with you guys because I’m terrified it will change your opinions of me, I’ll lose likes (I know it’s a material object) and all that crap but after being fake and losing all motivation to blog, it’s about time I come clean.

I have depression, I am depressed and I am fighting so many battles right now. I am not officially diagnosed (don’t @ me) but I’m pretty sure it’s depression when you can tick off all the symptoms and want to die.

I hate myself, I despise myself and everything I stand for and I am not okay. It is not fair for my to lie to myself. If I lose people due to this post so be it. I am fed up of being this happy person that doesn’t exist. Depression is and will always be an essence of me and it’s about time I deal with it.

Yes I will be deleting this post and write a less terrible and rambling one later but after reading some news articles and dealing with stigma and crap today and I am fed up with staying silent.

Remember, if you are feeling suicidal you are not alone and feel free to email me because I am going through the exact same thing and will always listen.

thanks,

your depressed poet,

xx